Week 3...

End of another week! Wow life as a 3rd year student is so crazy! There is just so much to do. And I'm only doing equivalent to 3 papers, one of which is at 100 level! I am so glad I didn't take 8 papers this year!

On Monday I had genetics which was awesome as usual. I am asolutely crazy about genetics! Study it every day. Then on Tuesday I was supposed to have media studies but I was so worried about my lab report that was due in the next day (I can't stand restriction maps! We had to do them again...) that I spent all Tuesday working on my lab report. I still wasn't sure whether I got the map right or not but by the time we had to hand the report in the next day I was so tired of worrying about it that I couldn't wait to get rid of it.

On Tuesday I also got my last weeks lab report back and it was devastating! I was so upset! Last year all my lab reports went well so this year I based my report on how we were taught last year to write them. But I got most of my layout wrong! Grrrrrrr. I was devastated. But luckily this year we have a lab demonstrator per lab table who marks our lab reports all the way through the term. Mine wrote a whole bunch of comments all over my report so at least I know what he expects from me. So for my lab report this week I tried to do everything he told me to improve from the last report. I pray that it will go well.

On Wednesday I had genetics and that was fun! On Friday we were going to have a test so we spent most of the lecture revising. More cue cards to write! Genetics is so exciting to study! Finally I get to do real genetics! (last year genetics was too broad- too much gene expression stuff and not enough chromosomes and stuff. Same goes for yr 13 genetics. But this year genetics is real genetics!! Last time we did real genetics it was in yr 12 bio!)

Then on Thursday I had my lab. I decided that labs get more and more interesting every week. This week we are doing an experiment on cells, extracting DNA and so and so. No more restriction maps!! The experiment will run over 4 weeks so we will spend the next several weeks working on it. And we only have to do a lab report right at the end. Yippeee!! (there's also an assignment but that should be ok) The lab went by really quick! In the middle during the break I had my media tutorial which was so boring compared to what we were doing in the lab! Biology is so much more exciting! What a contrast!

That night I spent studying non stop for genetics. I've studied it every day since the first day of the course. Cue cards are awesome! I love genetics sooo much! I really really really wanted to do really really well!!... The next morning I was so anxious I couldn't do anything! The test was at 2pm so I spent all morning doing... nothing. I couldn't do anything! I just could not study any more. I couldn't do anything else because I didn't want to get distracted. What if I get distracted and everything I've learnt just flies out??? (shudder) I could not wait to get to that test and write down everything!!! I ended up arriving at uni about an hour before the test, pacing up and down not knowing what to do with myself! Then at 2pm I had the test....

...Aaaghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! I came out feeling like the world was about to end. This was it. The end of the world. I could see stars... The test was so not what I expected at all. I wanted to cry. I didn't answer one part of a question so I knew I wouldn't get 100%. And I wasn't 100 % sure about some of the answers. And my answers were so scribbly, there was so little room to write! And how good had my answers been? There was so much more I could have written. Was what I wrote enough??? The first question stumped me so much! Pure shock! What answer was needed? "Design an experiment???!!!" Whatttt!!!!???? And how harsh was the marking going to be???

That afternoon I procrastinated coming home because I didn't want everyone to see me so upset. I really really really wanted to do really well on that test...So I went to get Mum's birthday card. How hard can choosing the perfect card be??? Well lets just say I came out of the shop about an hour later. Whew what a challenge!...but at least it put my mind off the test... sort of. I spent the rest of the day sulking and feeling horrible. What a terrible way to end a week!

And I have a genetics assignment due in on Monday so I buried myself in it for all of last night and today. Will finish it tomorrow. I was going to go online yesterday but I forbid myself to, as punishment for that test... grrrrrr. Still really upset about it... please Lord let everything be ok...